🎊 31/07/2023 Life Update 🎊

Disclaimer: Throughout the second half of this entry I'll be briefly discussing sexual assault, rape, abuse, and unwanted, forced pregnancy. If these topics cause you distress, discomfort or agitate symptoms of PTSD please skip this entry. Your safety and convenience are of the utmost importance. If you decide to exit after this content warning I wish you well and hope to see you at another time. 

Good evening lovelies! 🌷 This weekend was really eventful!! 🌟 On Friday, the summer program at my job ended so I'm officially on summer vacation for the next two weeks before the year starts up again. Saying goodbye to this group of hummingbirds was especially difficult. I love every one of them and I'll miss their smiles, quirks, and the laughs we shared - even the times I had to chase after them when they ran down the hallways. I learned a lot these past few months and look forward to what's to come. I feel blessed to be in a loving working environment and have grown as much as I have because of the patience and guidance of my coworkers, some of whom unfortunately left too soon for me to truly appreciate their companionship, especially that of my lead teacher from "Class B." We didn't get to become as close as I'd liked yet in the short time I was working with her, she already showed me a tremendous amount of consideration that I'm so grateful for. I hope good luck comes her way wherever she goes along with the others who will be moving forward.

Pleasant surprises all around! Some of the parents treated the other teachers and me with gifts and flowers!! Their thank yous are very appreciated 💘 I hope they truly understand that the time with their little ones was a blessing to all of us and we will continue to always wish them well and look forward to what the future holds for their families💗

Commencement was also this weekend 🎉 I actually graduated a while ago but due to other financial obligations and familial emergencies, I wasn't able to walk until now. I was hesitant to attend graduation because my insecurities got ahold of me but luckily everyone in my support system reminded me that I deserved to be celebrated 💌 There were many times throughout my academic career when I could only take a class or two a semester to have to time to work up to three jobs to help support my family. Throughout my time as a student, I was manipulated, abused, sexually assaulted, and raped - the last assault resulting in pregnancy.  All of these traumatic events tremendously deteriorated my mental stability which has irreparably affected my physical health - which of course negatively impacted my school performance. It's all so much, y'know? But my loved ones were right, my journey and how long it took isn't something to be ashamed of. I invited some of my best friends who later treated me to Korean BBQ 💅💓

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The waiter was so sweet! We told him I was graduating and he was really generous with the portions of food and even gave us some freebies, including these celebratory cupcakes 🧁💟 

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I had a blast! Unfortunately, the day was unbearably hot and I didn't take decent photos at the actual ceremony but I am planning on doing a photoshoot someday. I'm eternally grateful to my support system which is undoubtedly the reason why I had the stamina to continue my schooling but also the reason why I was inspired to keep wanting to live 💝 I hope I get to celebrate with everyone soon!!🍓⭐

I've moved forward with a new chapter in my life for some time, but the graduation ceremony cemented it. I have new friends I want to hang out with more and new life aspirations. I can't thank my friends, my sisters, my nephews, my mentors, and my parents enough. I was triggered the other day and yet I was able to gather myself effectively and move past it, with no problem, and can do so thanks to the hard work of all the therapists who took care of me while I was enrolled in my university's Victim Empowerment Program (VEP.) From needing emergency two to three-hour therapy sessions up to three times a week with additional group sessions to finally reaching a point where I am is truly a miracle. If any readers are also experiencing suffocating hardships please be kind to yourself and let yourself find refuge in loved ones and know there are resources out there to help you. I hope you all are having a peaceful night 💗🌺

If you or a loved one is struggling click here to see a list of resources provided by the American Psychological Association